Real Life ~ Inspired

I Am Truly Inspired.

Ever Since Watching Ben Chan Playing His Violin And The Beautiful Sound That A Violin Makes, I Was Inspired To Learn To Play A Violin.

Not Only Because Of His Violin Playing, I Was Also Inspired By The Instrumental Music That I've Been Listening To Recently, Especially Sad Ones.

I Am Becoming More And More Desperate To Learn How To Play A Violin.

I Even Started Wishing That I've Learned To Play The Violin Instead Of The Piano When I Was Younger.

The Day That I Could Probably Finally Hold A Violin And Play One Is When I Become A Psychologist Or Get My Own Earning Power To Own A Violin. With A Violin, I Can Attend Violin Lessons.

Hopefully The Teacher In The Future Violin Classes Would Be Patient And Kind. Unlike What I've Experienced In The Past From Those Previous Piano Teachers, They Were All Mostly Mean And Nasty, Utterly Unkind And Impatient. They Totally Freaked Me Out To The Extent Of Tears!

It Still Horrifies Me Now Thinking Back. *Shivers At The Memory*

So Anyways, When I Can Afford My Own Violin And Violin Lessons, I Wish That I Wouldn't Give Up Hope When I Find Out That I Suck At The First And Further Tries.

Haha. I Heard That It's VERY Tough To Learn And Play The Violin. >.<

Still, I Wanna Give It My Best Shot And Aim For The Day To Afford One And Learn To Play One. =x

Guess What? I Even Got So Desperate To Play One That I Even Dreamed Of It! Lolz.

Here's How The Dream Went...

One Of My Friend Is A Daughter Of 2 Musicians. One Plays The Violin And The Other Plays The Piano. They Will Sure Make A Great Combo As A Team!^^ That Friend Learned How To Play A Violin But Haven't Been Practicing. So One Day, I Asked Her To Bring Me One And Teach Me How To Play. She Agreed To Let Me Try And Really Brought One The Next Day. I Somehow Had My Own Fake Violin And Tried Playing It. Because The Strings Weren't Real, It Broke When I Tried To "Play" It. xD When The School Ended, She, My Other Friend And I Rushed To A Quiet Place To Try The Violin Out. She Actually Held It UPSIDE DOWN While Playing It. Some other Students Saw And Gathered Around. After She Played A Short While, She Handed Me The Violin To Try it On. I Was About To Flip it To The Correct Way to Play it When I Decided That Since That Was The Way She Taught Me, It's Best That I Follow As Well. I Got The Few Starting Notes Exactly Right. Weird, Her Violin Makes A Lower And Deeper Sound Than Other Violins. I Suddenly Forgotten How The rest of The Song Went And Also Forgotten How To Hold And Play it So I Gave It Back To Her. She Laughed And Told Me That it Was A Good Try For A Start And That's When The Dream Ended.

Funny And Strange Dream, Right? I Was Kinda Frustrated By The Time I Woke Up. Even In The Dream, Why Can't I Get A Proper Tutorial? Lolz. It Was So WEIRD Playing The Violin Upside Down.

I Just Hope That The Future Violin Lessons Would Not Be So Expensive. This Is So That My Dream Would Come True.

Any Of You Wonder Why I Can't Learn To Play The Violin Now?

It's Because I Knew Mom Wouldn't Trust Me Playing It For Long. I Knew That She Would Worry I Waste Her Money On The Violin And The Lessons. I Knew She Lost Faith In Me When it Comes To Musical Instruments. Thanks To Piano. But That Was A Different Story! She FORCED Me To Learn To Play One When I Was About 4 Years Old! (Oh C'mon! I Was Only A Kid And Didn't Know How To Appreciate Music!)

I Performed In Concerts Before. I Played The Piano Until I Could Cry. I Hated And Love It. In The End, Hate Won And Love Lost. That's Also Thanks To The Scary Piano teachers. They Scare The Creep Out Of Me. They Yelled The Living Day Lights Out Of Me. They Rushed The Breath Out Of Me. They Just Wouldn't Take It Easy And SLOWLY Teach Me.

Only 1 Or 2 Piano teachers Were Fine But Mom Found Them Not Good Enough So She Changed To The Scary ones Over And Over. @.@ It Drives Me Insane Now Thinking Back Of The Changes Of Teachers And The Many Faces I've Seen And The Attitudes of Theirs That I've Dealt With.

When I Finally Got To Quit Piano, She Told Me To Still Continue Playing One. She Said She Would Love To Learn As Well.

Seconds To Minutes. Minutes To Hours. Hours To Days. Days to Weeks. Weeks To Months. Months To Years. None Of What She Said Happened. I Was So Darn Afraid That I Avoided The Piano And The Talk Of Piano.

Mom Eventually Gave Up And Sold The Piano to Someone Else At Probably A Lower Price. After All, The Piano Was Old And Mostly Had Problems. She Got Pissed Every Time She Had To Get Someone To Fix it.

Wow, Thinking Back Once More, The Teachers Weren't The ONLY Scary ones! Mom Was ALSO One. She Was So Damn Sarcastic That I Cried During Piano Practice.

Mhm, I Really Wish I Can Still Try The Violin Without Crying Because Of It. Of Course, 0% Of Crying Is IMPOSSIBLE But Hopefully It Won't Bring Terrifying Memories And Give Me Phobia Of Violins In The End. Lolz.

So, I Hope You Reader(s) Don't Mind The Rambling In This Post.

Forgive My Self-Absorbency And Any Grammar/Spelling Mistakes.

Take Care, Everyone! I Hope The Next Day Awaiting You Will be Perfect And Wonderful To You!^^

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