OK, this month, March 2010 is a crazy month.
There's all these exams. There are always 3 procedures/processes/things happening relating exam.
Firstly, there's the time before exam where you have to go about revising over and over, some wondering whether revising this much is enough, some wishing that they had revised long before exam comes.
Secondly, there's the time during exam where you start answering the questions. Some will start wishing that they'd read about that part instead of the other that never came out in the papers. Some wishing that their brain won't freeze during the exam and even after those hours of studying, they can't remember the answer when they actually did. Frustrating, I know. It sucks, alright.
Here comes to last part, the time when you GET BACK YOUR RESULTS! Some clearly want to know their marks. Some reluctant to know. Some half wanting to know and half reluctant. For those who got the bad results, some of them wished that they had never seen the paper. Ahem, hiding the paper as well. xD Shh... This is an unspoken rule to readers that you should NEVER tell on those who hide papers...! Don't be so mean, please. For those who got the good results, congratulations from me personally but I HATE, TRULY HATE those of you who starts bragging and act all high and mighty. For those who are still modest, I am very happy for you. =P
See? 3 parts. And, I've got a confession to make, I HATE ALL 3 OF THEM!!! Lol.
I am not satisfied with my results so far except for Art. Art was a BIG joke! My first time getting an A for it, if I've not mistaken. Haha. So funny. I actually suck at drawing but because this time I got to draw my favorite thing: VIOLIN, I scored well even though I ruined the part where I painted the fine tuner and strings. >.< I regretted that part a lot.
I am most definitely disappointed in my English marks. Because my English is the best of all subjects, I can only be happy with one thing and that is... me getting the HIGHEST mark in my class but unfortunately, God decided to mess up my life and kill my feelings for some time again, scarring me once more emotionally. English is all I can depend on and all I live for besides music. I strongly hate any other languages that are said to be better than English. Especially a certain language. Ahem... Let's not get into trouble here now...
Moving on, thankfully, or not, that this test is a monthly one so it isn't as important as the big public exam or Mid-Term or End-of-term ones.
I will try to revise more instead of last minute and also to strengthen my English so that I do not have to be lumped together along with my whole school and country!
Argh, I sort of hate the person who beat me in English for being nice to me after all these time I've been silently (not really) cursing her. >.< I guess I became the 2nd highest in class for English... Why is it that I usually always came 2nd?
I come in 2nd to people and now I also come in 2nd for English exam... I also came in 2nd in a play-dough competition when I was in elementary school... Lol... Stupid coincidence. My reward was something only boys want to play with but I still keep it. xD
My hives are not getting any better whatsoever. It's worsening day by day... Everywhere is swelling and the next thing you know, after hours of resisting that powerful urge to scratch, it shrinks and goes back to normal. And then, another batch of swelling starts all over again. All red, lumpy, huge, swollen and itchy. Don't forget, the hives spot will have higher temperature, whether I scratch or not. Just touching it will make you flinch. It is like as if it's on fire...
Chronic hives... What can I say. This is like my... er... 5th month. Yep, I am slowly losing count of the "hivey" days. xD OK, fine, it's not funny but I don't want to make this too big of a deal to worry people, mainly parents.
I feel that they worry the most. Surely they worry about more things than I do. They are stronger than me. I worry less yet my body could not even take this little bit of anxiety compared to the ones they've endured all their life.
I feel like I'm crippled and forever living in anxiety.
Great, my heart just contracted or something. It hurt like hell... Last year, when I went on a vacation with my mom, dad, grandma and grandpa, grandpa's heart contracted because of the cold and he grabbed his chest with an agonized look. For him to be like this is normal but for a 15-year-old girl who has every limbs at the right place to grab the chest, it doesn't seem so right now, does it?
I go breathless very easily besides just having hives. Seriously, if I keep going breathless, it will be no surprise that one day, I get severe asthma. Being extremely breathless on first day of exam is normal for me but every single freaking day of the week? Puh-lease, give me a break. That is absolutely NOT normal!
Every single thing I touch is a problem. I have to consider first before I do something. Like today, there's volley ball for PE class and force or impact or whatever will cause hives. When I serve the ball (get your mind out of the gutter), my hands go red not long after serving. After awhile, it starts to become swollen but is mistaken for mosquito bites. If it becomes the worst like that day, it will be as if I have a map on my body. Well, that way, maybe I will never get lost anymore, right? LOL! Wrong. It's NOT a map. xD
Hey, when people say to be careful what you wish for, they're actually right. Last year when I was still normal, I wished I could suffer asthma, allergy (now to be known as hives) and also heart pain. Guess what? Eff it, I really gone all breathless and chronic hives. Heart pain comes soon after those 2.
Holy golitely, what the crap is this? I have become your extraordinary walking map! That way, you people will not get lost as well then! So be glad you do not have, I meant those who are not suffering from hives.
But if I were to compare the pain received from severe asthma to chronic hives, asthma is worse than hives. Hives may be torturing and all but to not be able to breathe, I'd rather have hives.
Ugh, my left ear has started hives. Bye, people.
Make sure you be careful what you wish for then! xD
Thursday, March 11, 2010
Sunday, March 7, 2010
Answers To Biography Of Eleana De Leano
This is to let you readers know that I have edited the essay a bit of here and there as some phrases contained grammar mistakes. Some parts are not suitable to be typed out in blog.
Do not fret as you all have just read about the most amazing person in the world ever.
To be honest, more like cyber world. xD Lol.
Take care and have fun, everyone~!^^
I wish the best for you all! =D
Do not fret as you all have just read about the most amazing person in the world ever.
To be honest, more like cyber world. xD Lol.
Take care and have fun, everyone~!^^
I wish the best for you all! =D
Biography ~ Eleana De Leano
Today, I will be talking about Eleana, not myself. Eleana is a 26-year-old female. Half french and is a Canadian. She is currently working as a secretary in Malaysia. Not long ago, she shifted from Canada to Malaysia. Her boss is a mean guy and is nasty to her. He got her a job in Malaysia. The week before shifting to my country, he gave her many work to do.
Her full name is Eleana De Leano, by the way. She has blonde hair with brown highlights and green eyes, almost luminous, just like a cat's eye. People, I am NOT a stalker. I just like her really much as a best friend. I trust her a lot.
Eleana and I have never met in person but we trust one another equally. She approached me first on YouTube. She added me and left a comment on my channel. Ever since then, we exchanged information of ourselves. She was a gloomy and dark person.
I do not know much about her childhood but it seems like she had gone through a big deal of pain. She had issues when it came to trusting people. After we met one another, I noticed she became much more friendlier and open. She started showing brighter facial expressions online and including laughter.
Eleana plays the piano and violin, just like me. The only difference between us is that she learned the violin herself and is much better at it than me. I've never heard her play but that is a sure thing. She quit piano at a young age, just like me, again. See? We DO have something in common.
Not long after quitting the piano, she began realizing it was one of the worst mistake to make ever in a lifetime. She realized her mistake after taking up violin. She understood that her life revolves around music. She regretted badly but took it well. She is a strong person. She loved both the piano and violin but the best is still piano for her. After all, she already learned the basics.
Eleana's parents both passed away in a car accident. She was devastated but as a strong person, she picked herself up and slowly pick up all the broken pieces, fitting them altogether again.
has anyone ever wondered about her love life? Ha ha. Admit it. Surely some of you are dying to know. Eleana's love record stayed clean throughout her life. Through childhood, through teen years and now in her mid 20s. She had never been interested in guys before always dreamed of one.
Her love for anime and manga is just about as much as mine. Unfortunately, she started loving them right after I told her about it. It was late but not too late for her to love them. So far, she's started watching "D.Gray Man". As for manga, she is reading whatever I recommended her.
Well, people, sorry but this is about all I can say as my headache is worsening. Eleana is a good person you can rarely meet or find so she is very special. Thanks for reading!
Her full name is Eleana De Leano, by the way. She has blonde hair with brown highlights and green eyes, almost luminous, just like a cat's eye. People, I am NOT a stalker. I just like her really much as a best friend. I trust her a lot.
Eleana and I have never met in person but we trust one another equally. She approached me first on YouTube. She added me and left a comment on my channel. Ever since then, we exchanged information of ourselves. She was a gloomy and dark person.
I do not know much about her childhood but it seems like she had gone through a big deal of pain. She had issues when it came to trusting people. After we met one another, I noticed she became much more friendlier and open. She started showing brighter facial expressions online and including laughter.
Eleana plays the piano and violin, just like me. The only difference between us is that she learned the violin herself and is much better at it than me. I've never heard her play but that is a sure thing. She quit piano at a young age, just like me, again. See? We DO have something in common.
Not long after quitting the piano, she began realizing it was one of the worst mistake to make ever in a lifetime. She realized her mistake after taking up violin. She understood that her life revolves around music. She regretted badly but took it well. She is a strong person. She loved both the piano and violin but the best is still piano for her. After all, she already learned the basics.
Eleana's parents both passed away in a car accident. She was devastated but as a strong person, she picked herself up and slowly pick up all the broken pieces, fitting them altogether again.
has anyone ever wondered about her love life? Ha ha. Admit it. Surely some of you are dying to know. Eleana's love record stayed clean throughout her life. Through childhood, through teen years and now in her mid 20s. She had never been interested in guys before always dreamed of one.
Her love for anime and manga is just about as much as mine. Unfortunately, she started loving them right after I told her about it. It was late but not too late for her to love them. So far, she's started watching "D.Gray Man". As for manga, she is reading whatever I recommended her.
Well, people, sorry but this is about all I can say as my headache is worsening. Eleana is a good person you can rarely meet or find so she is very special. Thanks for reading!
Real Life ~ Civic Project Done!
=D Yay, it's finally done. The stupid project that wasted so much of my time is finally done. The stupid project that gave me stress and tears is finally done! The stupid project that gave me the worst headache is finally done! AFTER the final page is printed, of course. xD Lol.
Since the project is done and that my headache has lessen a little bit more, I have the mood to post a biography of my cyber friend. I've written this essay on Thursday or something and for those of my friends who've not read it yet, you're in luck! xD
I know, I know, a cyber friend sounds so creepy and scary, someone you should never trust since you do not have any idea how the person looks, whether the person's picture is real or if the person is really who he/she is to you online.
No worries, I am sure this person is good. Because I know her.
Well, I will be talking more about her in the next post to be published.
Please enjoy. Lol.
Since the project is done and that my headache has lessen a little bit more, I have the mood to post a biography of my cyber friend. I've written this essay on Thursday or something and for those of my friends who've not read it yet, you're in luck! xD
I know, I know, a cyber friend sounds so creepy and scary, someone you should never trust since you do not have any idea how the person looks, whether the person's picture is real or if the person is really who he/she is to you online.
No worries, I am sure this person is good. Because I know her.
Well, I will be talking more about her in the next post to be published.
Please enjoy. Lol.
Real Life ~ Civic Project
Gosh, the Civic Project that the teacher gave us is driving me up the wall. Even though most of the information & pictures were given by the websites (I am grateful), I still have to use up my brain a lot and today's work really drained almost my whole soul away.
I noticed that whenever I do something that is big deal to me, I never breathe properly, I just held my breath most of the time. By the time I'm done, I feel so freaking tired that I could collapse right away. Just about anywhere, may it be the floor of my house or not. I really have many health problems. xD Including mental as well.
I've just fibbed a lot in order to make the project done according to the instructions given. My tongue, well, actually, my hand is probably black with all those lies. LOL. No worries, I do not feel bad lying about it. I am just glad I am one step closer to getting it done and submitting the project in April.
I am doing this project for my whole group of total 5 people including myself. I done it all on my own. Even though one of the member of the group asked whether she could help, I turned her down. >.< Like I always said, I am much of a loner and would rather do things on my own even though I may need help at times. This would mean I can socialize less and that I will endure less of people's attitude.
After printing all the pages and everything, I realized I missed out on 2 things.
Once I have my dinner already, I will be typing out those and fibbing more! Lol.
I doubt that I can go to school looking healthy tomorrow. I will probably have bad hives like now, be VERY exhausted and breathless. All life sucked out of me.
Not exaggerating much here but I am not lying about this.
This is what a sick and weak person would feel and go through just about every single day of their lives until one final day they've cured.
So people, I am no super-girl and so are others. We have our limits and it's just that I wonder when will I reach my limit. The day I reach my limit will be the day I either:
A) Go insane
B) Get into a coma
C) Cough excessive blood out
D) Become a vegetable human
E) Need psychologist or whoever to help
F) Collapse and have the heart stop beating
People, cast your votes now! xD But no rewards here though.
If I actually still survive after reaching my limit, it's a miracle but more like a bloody miserable miracle because I have no intention to live any longer than now. Even though I should not be complaining about anything after reaching this far, I am who I am so I am STILL complaining! xD
Sorry, people.
I noticed that whenever I do something that is big deal to me, I never breathe properly, I just held my breath most of the time. By the time I'm done, I feel so freaking tired that I could collapse right away. Just about anywhere, may it be the floor of my house or not. I really have many health problems. xD Including mental as well.
I've just fibbed a lot in order to make the project done according to the instructions given. My tongue, well, actually, my hand is probably black with all those lies. LOL. No worries, I do not feel bad lying about it. I am just glad I am one step closer to getting it done and submitting the project in April.
I am doing this project for my whole group of total 5 people including myself. I done it all on my own. Even though one of the member of the group asked whether she could help, I turned her down. >.< Like I always said, I am much of a loner and would rather do things on my own even though I may need help at times. This would mean I can socialize less and that I will endure less of people's attitude.
After printing all the pages and everything, I realized I missed out on 2 things.
Once I have my dinner already, I will be typing out those and fibbing more! Lol.
I doubt that I can go to school looking healthy tomorrow. I will probably have bad hives like now, be VERY exhausted and breathless. All life sucked out of me.
Not exaggerating much here but I am not lying about this.
This is what a sick and weak person would feel and go through just about every single day of their lives until one final day they've cured.
So people, I am no super-girl and so are others. We have our limits and it's just that I wonder when will I reach my limit. The day I reach my limit will be the day I either:
A) Go insane
B) Get into a coma
C) Cough excessive blood out
D) Become a vegetable human
E) Need psychologist or whoever to help
F) Collapse and have the heart stop beating
People, cast your votes now! xD But no rewards here though.
If I actually still survive after reaching my limit, it's a miracle but more like a bloody miserable miracle because I have no intention to live any longer than now. Even though I should not be complaining about anything after reaching this far, I am who I am so I am STILL complaining! xD
Sorry, people.
Real Life ~ Back On Track, Hopefully...
I am thinking of updating my blog more often so for those who have been waiting for updates all this while, I am sorry for the long wait. 3 months! Can you believe it? 3 months passed by so fast. I just cannot believe how time flies.
One minute, it was my first time opening my eyes; Then, suddenly, I have to sit for a big exam this year!
This is crazy. Well, life IS crazy and is also exactly like a roller coaster. Some people and I believe, most of them will want a day that they can slow the roller coaster down a bit to have a break then continue when they're ready. Sadly, that will NEVER happen.
Who knows, maybe that will happen the day you retire from work and is satisfied with life the way it is.
Then again, some will never be satisfied. xD And one of them is... Moi! Lolz.
After getting the violin, I was absolutely soaring in the sky, taking endless pictures of my violin and looking at it 24/7. Then, BAM! I am back down on the ground, I actually landed quite hard, you know, reality hit me and made me realize I can't just focus on violin only. I have other things to occupy me really well too!
Well, firstly, as a student, I have my own homework and exams. Then, as a child of my parents, in fact, the ONLY child, I have to make them proud, as hard as it is to make them satisfied or please them, I am compelled to do so. Then lastly, as a human on this place called EARTH, I have to achieve my dreams and goals, go for everything and be an all-rounder. I have to be polite and fair at the same time, be able to make good friends and change the world for the better too. Everything has to be perfect and of good quality. But... everyone's different. Therefore, I cannot please everyone on this planet and I cannot agree with everything they want either because I am ALSO just a human. I have feelings as well, I will die one day, I get sick as well, just like any normal human would be like.
Even so, I still try to be the strongest. I want to be everyone's guide. Guide them so that they won't repeat my mistakes, so that they won't regret or blame themselves. I also want to be everyone's shoulder to cry on. I want to be able to cheer them up and mop their tears away. I want to be able to throw their worries away, taking all bad things away and leave happy things by their side. I want to be a truly selfless person. Then again, I get taken advantage of and I start being my selfish self AGAIN. I start getting cranky, may it be for something reasonable or not.
Those who're not used to seeing my negative side will be very appalled and then start hating me for it. Those who already knew I could be a real monster will hate me more than before.
See? How can it be so easy being everything?
I sometimes wonder why I bother doing everything well when there will come a day my heart stops beating and will be forgotten. I guess I only do this because everyone was told to be like this and if I can't go against them, I have to BE them.
I wonder why people want to live so long. I wonder why can't they be satisfied with the way things are now. Hand phones getting smaller and thinner, clothes getting smaller in size, fashion getting wackier than ever... Maybe one day I will look back at this post and go "My, my, I cannot believe how stupid I was" but I am now thinking of a good reason why is everything the way it is now?
Is it just money? Nothing more? The phrase where "Only love is enough" becomes a lie that everyone says like it's nothing? Is this how our lives will be in the future? Everyone busy rushing to create something stupid and ridiculous to become famous and rich. All owning a house as big as a mountain? House owners all competing against one another over the size of their house? Buildings getting taller and taller? Clothes getting thinner and thinner? Hairstyles of all colours?
My gosh, I sound like an old grumpy woman but then is the world going to become like that? Even though I am just a teenager, I am different in my own way and I find this world perfect the way it is. No more technologies needed to be created. I am happy with the TV being this clear now, there's no need for blue-ray. There's no need for 3D TV too if it is going to be invented one day or is it already out?
I'm happy with hand phones the way it is, being able to take pictures and take videos, being able to text message using T9, being able to surf the web using it, being able to listen to music by using it... ...
I think hand phones are small enough already, and also thin enough already. I don't want to have to have trouble seeing where it is in the future. In fact, I wouldn't dream of having it implanted into my brain!
I am happy with laptops and computers the way they are right now. I am also happy with the MP3 players, iPods and anything like them right now.
Cars look cool the way they are now... This is giving me a headache. I will be stopping here.
Bye and do not feel offended because of whatever I said!
One minute, it was my first time opening my eyes; Then, suddenly, I have to sit for a big exam this year!
This is crazy. Well, life IS crazy and is also exactly like a roller coaster. Some people and I believe, most of them will want a day that they can slow the roller coaster down a bit to have a break then continue when they're ready. Sadly, that will NEVER happen.
Who knows, maybe that will happen the day you retire from work and is satisfied with life the way it is.
Then again, some will never be satisfied. xD And one of them is... Moi! Lolz.
After getting the violin, I was absolutely soaring in the sky, taking endless pictures of my violin and looking at it 24/7. Then, BAM! I am back down on the ground, I actually landed quite hard, you know, reality hit me and made me realize I can't just focus on violin only. I have other things to occupy me really well too!
Well, firstly, as a student, I have my own homework and exams. Then, as a child of my parents, in fact, the ONLY child, I have to make them proud, as hard as it is to make them satisfied or please them, I am compelled to do so. Then lastly, as a human on this place called EARTH, I have to achieve my dreams and goals, go for everything and be an all-rounder. I have to be polite and fair at the same time, be able to make good friends and change the world for the better too. Everything has to be perfect and of good quality. But... everyone's different. Therefore, I cannot please everyone on this planet and I cannot agree with everything they want either because I am ALSO just a human. I have feelings as well, I will die one day, I get sick as well, just like any normal human would be like.
Even so, I still try to be the strongest. I want to be everyone's guide. Guide them so that they won't repeat my mistakes, so that they won't regret or blame themselves. I also want to be everyone's shoulder to cry on. I want to be able to cheer them up and mop their tears away. I want to be able to throw their worries away, taking all bad things away and leave happy things by their side. I want to be a truly selfless person. Then again, I get taken advantage of and I start being my selfish self AGAIN. I start getting cranky, may it be for something reasonable or not.
Those who're not used to seeing my negative side will be very appalled and then start hating me for it. Those who already knew I could be a real monster will hate me more than before.
See? How can it be so easy being everything?
I sometimes wonder why I bother doing everything well when there will come a day my heart stops beating and will be forgotten. I guess I only do this because everyone was told to be like this and if I can't go against them, I have to BE them.
I wonder why people want to live so long. I wonder why can't they be satisfied with the way things are now. Hand phones getting smaller and thinner, clothes getting smaller in size, fashion getting wackier than ever... Maybe one day I will look back at this post and go "My, my, I cannot believe how stupid I was" but I am now thinking of a good reason why is everything the way it is now?
Is it just money? Nothing more? The phrase where "Only love is enough" becomes a lie that everyone says like it's nothing? Is this how our lives will be in the future? Everyone busy rushing to create something stupid and ridiculous to become famous and rich. All owning a house as big as a mountain? House owners all competing against one another over the size of their house? Buildings getting taller and taller? Clothes getting thinner and thinner? Hairstyles of all colours?
My gosh, I sound like an old grumpy woman but then is the world going to become like that? Even though I am just a teenager, I am different in my own way and I find this world perfect the way it is. No more technologies needed to be created. I am happy with the TV being this clear now, there's no need for blue-ray. There's no need for 3D TV too if it is going to be invented one day or is it already out?
I'm happy with hand phones the way it is, being able to take pictures and take videos, being able to text message using T9, being able to surf the web using it, being able to listen to music by using it... ...
I think hand phones are small enough already, and also thin enough already. I don't want to have to have trouble seeing where it is in the future. In fact, I wouldn't dream of having it implanted into my brain!
I am happy with laptops and computers the way they are right now. I am also happy with the MP3 players, iPods and anything like them right now.
Cars look cool the way they are now... This is giving me a headache. I will be stopping here.
Bye and do not feel offended because of whatever I said!
Summary Of My Life From The Last Time I Updated My Blog!
OK, people, I am very sorry for not updating my blog for a very long time. About 3 months. Wowie, that's long.
So here is the summarized life of mine! Hope you enjoy...?
-I got my violin on December 26th 2009
-I started wanting piano more because I missed my old 88 keys piano
-Violin lesson started, everything went well with the teacher
-Violin lessons start to become a drag and getting reluctant to see the teacher
-All this while the "Allergy", now known as hives, is getting worse and has become chronic hives now. NO JOKE. It affects the heartbeat, which means, I'm slowly dying. Just you wait and see! LOL.
-Also, I changed my typing long ago. xD
-Stopped violin lessons from that teacher, changed to another new teacher, a much more matured and professional one (Since Saturday [6th March 2010])
See? VERY summarized. VERY simple and short. Haha. I hope you like it though it's probably getting more and more boring for you readers. That is, if anyone's even reading! I feel like I'm talking to a wall.
This year is an important year for me as I have a big exam to go through. This is no longer any class quiz, monthly test or Mid-term exams or whatever, this is something every student at the age of 15 must take. I decided to open my eyes wider for this exam because I need to go to the Science stream in order to get to be closer to my primary goal: BECOME A PSYCHOLOGIST!
I can't say that my eyes are open wide enough though. I am still who I am, just getting weaker day by day and crankier. xD I am still the lazy self.
OK, I better leave now. I have to continue my homework and project!
Ta-ta! Thanks to whoever's reading and sorry to have bored you guys to death! xD
So here is the summarized life of mine! Hope you enjoy...?
-I got my violin on December 26th 2009
-I started wanting piano more because I missed my old 88 keys piano
-Violin lesson started, everything went well with the teacher
-Violin lessons start to become a drag and getting reluctant to see the teacher
-All this while the "Allergy", now known as hives, is getting worse and has become chronic hives now. NO JOKE. It affects the heartbeat, which means, I'm slowly dying. Just you wait and see! LOL.
-Also, I changed my typing long ago. xD
-Stopped violin lessons from that teacher, changed to another new teacher, a much more matured and professional one (Since Saturday [6th March 2010])
See? VERY summarized. VERY simple and short. Haha. I hope you like it though it's probably getting more and more boring for you readers. That is, if anyone's even reading! I feel like I'm talking to a wall.
This year is an important year for me as I have a big exam to go through. This is no longer any class quiz, monthly test or Mid-term exams or whatever, this is something every student at the age of 15 must take. I decided to open my eyes wider for this exam because I need to go to the Science stream in order to get to be closer to my primary goal: BECOME A PSYCHOLOGIST!
I can't say that my eyes are open wide enough though. I am still who I am, just getting weaker day by day and crankier. xD I am still the lazy self.
OK, I better leave now. I have to continue my homework and project!
Ta-ta! Thanks to whoever's reading and sorry to have bored you guys to death! xD
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